Goal #9 on my list of 30 things to do before I turn 30 is to write ten poems and post them on my blog. Here is poem number 4. I wrote it for my oldest brother. We are eight years apart and although his life has been hard, he has always been kind to me and I am so grateful he is in my life.
Its been a long, tough road
these past few years,
There are have been many broken hearts
and a whole lot of tears.
I've asked questions like,
"Why does he have to be like this?"
Or "Will he ever know what its like
to take care of a wife and kids?"
Sometimes I feel hopeless
and helpless and selfish.
I think that things will never change
and I'll just have to get used to this.
But when I get on my knees and pray,
I see his face and know there is hope.
He is a child of God, he is my brother,
I see things from a more heavenly scope.
Christ commanded us to
"Love one another, as I have loved you."
I might not cure Tommy's pain,
but there is something I can do.
I can love him unconditionally,
because I know that's what Christ would choose.
He would take Tommy in His arms
and there would be no judgment in His eyes.
He'd give him comfort and peace
and He'd cry while Tommy cries.
Then He'd say, "My brother.
Please come back to My fold.
Drink freely of my living water,
its worth more than silver and gold.
I came to this earth to prepare a way
for you to come back Home.
I'm gathering my lost sheep
and you no longer need to roam.
I suffered greatly in Gethsemane
and gave my life upon the cross.
I did it because it was the only way
to save the souls of those who have been lost.
I have felt your pain and it hurt so much
Please do not let it destroy you
Give Me your pains and burdens
I will take away your suffering too.
Come back to My fold, dear brother,
I am standing outside your door.
I will not go away, I will always stay,
and when you're ready I'll give You wings to soar."
My hope is in Jesus. I know He is there.
There is no need to worry or fear.
When Tommy is ready, whether in this life or next,
Christ will be ready and near.
I will love him and pray for him
it the best I can do.
And the Savior will take care of the rest.
He'll bless Tommy and me and you.